So about a year ago I underwent ECT for a good month and a half. I thought that was the end and I was cured. I mean, not cured, but had gotten my symptoms under control with medication and therapy. Oh no!!!! I was wrong! In November I mentioned to my doctors that I thought the ECT was no longer working. They both came back with, "no, no, that is not what is happening. It is too soon." Oh how wrong they were. Finally my doctor said I should have maintenance ECT (meaning every other week for a month and then once monthly). Well the doctor that administers the ECT made the most valid point that you can't start maintenance when you are so low. Uh, duh!!!! Of course you can't. I'm so annoyed at myself that I didn't push harder back in the winter. So here I am, undergoing ECT three times a week. I'm not sure what this will mean for my job. My job is one that really needs to be in the office five days a week. I have specific tasks each day. There are only three of us in the office, and one of those three is only there three days a week. Nobody has the capacity to take on my duties. I totally get that. I'm not sure if I'll be able to keep the job or if I will need to give it up. It isn't the love of my life job, but I do REALLY love the people I work with and the hours are good and the environment is positive. So those are all three really important aspects of a job.
Friday was my first treatment and man was it a doozy. I woke up from the anesthesia super duper nauseous and HOT. I mean hot in like I was sweating and flushed. They had ice all over my face and neck to try and cool me off. I don't know what happened. But it wasn't fun!!!! Today was much easier. I mean I woke up with a massive headache, but I think that is to be expected. I wasn't hot and I was not really nauseous either. Both pluses in my mind. I came home and both Friday and today I took a four hour nap each day.
I guess this is all a learning game. I will have to learn how to work with my constraints. I will have to learn how to work with work, meaning either keeping my job or needing to give up the job. I hope I can stay, but totally understand if I can't. I will need to learn how to make sure I am taking care of myself, each and every day. Meaning, getting enough sleep, eating properly, getting enough exercise, drinking enough water. All little things that add up to something huge in the big picture of overall health.
What do you do to keep your health, both physical and mental, in tip top shape? What are some tricks of your trade that you rely on to keep you on the straight and narrow? Or if you prefer a more winding path, what do you do to keep your forward momentum? Please comment below, I'd love to hear from you.
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Just your average 40 something trying to find the way in which she can make sense of her life. I hope you'll join me for this journey.