I can not believe it has been about two months since my last post. And in that time the year has changed from 2017 to 2018! Crazy man, crazy!!!!! You know how everyone and their mother has a "Word of the Year" (WOTY)? Well I have one too. Mine is:
I chose it because I want to live with meaning. I don't want life to happen TO me, I want life to happen BECAUSE of me. Does that make sense? I hope so.
I figure if I can do things consciously, rather than on auto-pilot, my life will be meaningful. Like take today for instance. I don't need to be to work until noon. I could have slept and let myself wake up late, rush around showering, packing my lunch, and probably not eating anything for breakfast. Instead I let myself lounge in bed for about 40 minutes, slowly got up, made a cup of tea and a protein smoothie, watched some morning news. After about 50 minutes I got into my workout clothes and went to the gym. In order to get myself there I promised myself that instead of my scheduled run I would simply walk for the same amount of time. I would walk and get myself back up and acclimated to working out (since I hadn't been to the gym in two weeks). Well guess what? There were new treadmills and you could have a video playing while you worked out. I chose running through Central Park, the place where running began for me way back in the day. Instead of just walking, when the first interval came on my watch I chose to run it. I didn't have to, I had given myself permission to not. But I am guess that since I took the pressure off of myself that is exactly why I chose to do it anyway. By the end of my session I was sweaty and feeling proud of myself. That was something I did meaningfully for me!
Now it's now, I'm at the coffee shop writing this post. I wanted to let you in on how the next couple of months are going to look for 1000miles1step. It is my goal to have one blog post up per week. Now I know I've said that before, but I think with my new meaningful outlook this is a real possibility. I think not rushing around, doing things at the last minute, will help me accomplish everything that I want to accomplish (like writing every week). I've been watching a ton of new vloggers and am thoroughly enjoying them. Would I like to make vlogs....hmmmm....not sure. But I do know I would like to share things with you that I am currently enjoying. Maybe a monthly favorites? Something like that? But in blog form. Would that be something you would care to read about or should I keep this blog purely about my life with bi-polar disorder? You tell me.
Speaking of bi-polar disorder, I went to a two day NAMI training to be an In Our Own Voice presenter. It is a 90 minute presentation done by two consumers. We pretty much tell our story, coupled with a NAMI produced video. It was a long two days, I'll be honest. But I did meet some wonderful folks, many of whom I hope to keep in touch with (you know who you are if you're reading this). I hope to actually participate in a presentation one day soon, or soon enough that I don't get rusty. I'll keep you posted about this for sure.
I think for now that about wraps up this blog post. I hope you are all well and enjoying this respite from the blistering cold we had last week.
Until we meet again
Why I'm Blogging
Just your average 40 something trying to find the way in which she can make sense of her life. I hope you'll join me for this journey.