I'm trying to figure out how to put my thoughts into words. I mean, how do you explain that you need to put yourself first in order to take care of anyone else as well? I think our society is one in which if you put your own needs ahead of the needs of others you are looked at as being selfish. I don't agree with that. I think that it is necessary to put what YOU need to be healthy and fully functioning ahead of the needs of others. If you don't put your needs first how will you have anything left over to take care of those needs? Be clear in what YOU need to be a fully functioning member of society AND THEN you will be able to help others take care of themselves as well.
Currently I am undergoing Electro-Convulsive Therapy three times a week. I need to make sure that I do everything I possibly can to take care of myself as I undergo this rather harsh treatment. If I don't put my own needs first I will not have anything left over to give to others in my life. I need to make sure I'm eating healthy, well-balanced meals. I need to make sure I am getting enough sleep every night. I need to make sure I am consuming enough water to keep my body fully hydrated. These are the basic steps I can take to make sure I am putting my health first and foremost.
As my memory slip slides away I need to take steps to remind myself of the events that I need to remember. Whether it is jotting it down in my planner (click here for $10.00 off your first Erin Condren order) or leaving Post It Notes around my apartment, I need to make sure that I have memory joggers in crucial locations since my brain is not working like i t used to work. Eventually my brain will revert to normal functioning, but only after there is a good size chunk of time in between the ECT and the present time.
I need to not be afraid to ask for clarification when something is not clear to me. I can not be afraid to admit when I don't remember something, regardless of what it is. ECT effects the memory and that is okay. Life is not always pretty and life is not always smooth. Own the messiness of life and things will flow much more naturally. I am trying to own my messiness right now.