So I have a really good friend, and she has been a really good friend since junior high school--so for many, many years. We've gone through periods of being in touch and periods of not being in touch. Just the natural ebb and flow of not living in the same town and going to the same school. Recently we are both struggling--her with her issues and me with mine. However, we both are really working on finding the silver lining through all the uncertainty and insecurities. To wit, we decided to send each other a text each day, whenever we think of it, stating three things we are grateful for. We are working on cultivating an "Attitude of Gratitude." It is hard man, let me tell you. I mean I can't speak for my friend, but for me, it is a stretch to find three things that I genuinely am grateful for.
Monday was sort of easy, truth be told. Or maybe it was easy because I was committed to this Attitude of Gratitude and it was shiny and new. Who knows. Tuesday was a little tougher to find three things that I was honestly grateful for or about. And today.....well then today happened.
It is currently quarter after seven and I have yet to text my three things yet. I am really struggling today to find things to be grateful for. The day started on the low note, I woke to a pretty significant panic attack. And knowing that I had a fairly long commute to work I was not able to take as much Klonopin as I would have liked to. I needed to do some hard work on myself to get it under control. Then a snafu with the bank that lasted the full work day and spanned three states just to fix the bank's issue. I tried a new way home and got stuck in unmoving traffic (but at least the scenery was beautiful--now there is something for my list!!!!!!).
Thank goodness I am home, and I am not ashamed to admit I am in my pajamas, drinking an iced cappuccino. Bottoms up!!!
Now off to text my list of grateful things to my friend.
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Just your average 40 something trying to find the way in which she can make sense of her life. I hope you'll join me for this journey.