I'm not quite sure what to say or how to say it. I'm not quite sure I'm sure I know everything that has happened over the course of the past six weeks. I'm not quite sure I am sure how to make the most of my present. I'm just not quite sure of this new beginning I've been given. This new chance to really make the most of the life I have been blessed with because I am fortunate enough to be given a second chance.
To put it bluntly, I am one damn lucky lady! I have the support of my family and my doctors and it is truly thanks to all of them that I have arrived at this new precipice. It is thanks to all of them that I am able to look at the rain and begin to dance.
My life is one giant storm. It is not fun. It is not easy. It is not wonderful. But thanks to everything I have just experienced I am ready to learn how to dance in the rain that is my life. I am ready to see the beauty contained in the storm. I am ready to take the parts of my life and see the joy and beauty contained within them. I am ready to find each of the many positive aspects within my life and capitalize on them.
I am ready to live!!!! I mean TRULY LIVE!!!!!
I couldn't have made it here, to this point, without the support of my family. They put their lives on hold--lives that had A TON of exciting and new things happening--to be able to provide me with the guidance and support that I needed in order to experience the past six weeks. I owe them my life! I owe them the chances that I am able to capitalize on currently. I owe them everything!!!!!!
I am still coming back. I am still making sense of everything that has happened and is happening. I am still figuring it all out. I don't know exactly how I am going to make the most out of this new life I have been given. My words don't come as easily as they once did. I am not able to remember all the details that made my life my life as easily as I once did. But I do know this for sure: I NEED TO TAKE FULL ADVANTAGE OF THIS NEW BEGINNING THAT I HAVE BEEN GIVEN.
Please stick around and journey with me through my new beginning. I can't wait to share it with you. So many things are on the cusp of beginning. I hope you'll join me for the journey.